Remembering the Past- Looking to the Future

Recently, some of my friends have been writing down all the humorous stories of our past. I must admit that it had been years since I had thought about the stories. I scrolled down the list that had to of been more than 150 long I found myself laughing hysterically in my room as I replayed the stories one by one in my head.

I could not help but feel blessed for the good times in my life. As a college student who is preparing to graduate in the next year, the future is something that I have been thinking about and yearning for.

The problem I am having is that the present seems to get left out of my life right now. And when you are not concerned with the present it is hard to trully appreciate the past and prepare for the future.

I am supposed to marry my longtime girlfriend immediately after graduation, but my lack of motivation has put my graduation time line in jeopardy. My mom used to tell me that I was always looking ahead. I looked ahead to getting a driver's license, then I was looking forward to college, and I am looking forward to graduation. It pains me to say it, but I think my mom was right.

The next few weeks I am going to be looking for satisfaction in the now. I have found that if you want to feel depressed, a good way is to come to the conclusion that whatever is over the bridge is far and away better than what the now has to offer. While this may be true, I think I have really discredited God's plan for my life. I have made his plan small and only about the big picture, while I hope it is precise and big.